Thursday, November 29, 2007
curfew time- this happens at home. The purpose is to gain independence and to also gain trust. Not always does it arrive at a better decision because usually parents are stuck in their ways but sometimes all you have to do is ask for it. The debate is unstructureded. I don't think this would change the outcome because i'm positive there are no ''formal'' arguements about curfew
Your book so far is interesting. I like the way that you relate what is going on now in the year 2007 to the things that went on back in the 60's. I've actually always wished that I lived in the 60's just for the music and 60’s music is the main subject of this book. I really like Dink’s wit and I also think that Princess seems very smart. I don’t really like Punky, though. I think that he seems a bit too sleazy. With Punky, I can’t take him seriously but I think that is something that you did intentionally. Also Manny Gold bothers me. When Dink and Princess first see the Meringues, the way you wrote Dink’s reaction was really great. I loved the emotion in your words when you described the group. I was surprised when Dink and Princess chose the Harlequins over the Meringues but obviously that won’t last long. I hope that Dink finds someone to love him because he seems so entrapped in his work and unhappy at times. Dink and Princess I think would be a good couple but I know that wouldn’t work out. I can’t wait to learn more about the mysterious Anna Dubower and her alleged affair with John Lennon. I love the Beatles more than anything in the entire world. They’re hands down my favorite band of all time. To tell you the truth the only reason I chose this book is because on the back it says Anna has “ affair with John Lennon”.
cascade(25)- an arrangement of a lightweight fabric in folds falling one over another in random or zigzag fashion
One theme that is emerging is the conflict in integrity. This is because the trial in the book is fighting for the rights to the Annas' songs and who deserves the money for the songs.
Tuesday, November 13, 2007
- Meet the Annas by Robert Dunn
- Copyright 2007
- 315 pages
- The book is a "muscial novel" and as of right now I'm not sure quite what that means but it should be challenging for me since it's a new style of writing. Meet the Annas is a drama as well as a "musical". There's also some mystery tied in too. I think the combination of all three will make an interesting book that should be very challenging.
- One reason I chose Meet the Annas was because I love 60's rock, which the book is centered on. Also, in the summary on the back it mentioned something about an "affair with John Lennon" which was actually the definite decieding factor as to why I chose this book over others.
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Both Ramon and Jean-Dominique were quadriplegic but they had their differences. Well first off, Ramon still had movement in his head and was able to speak where as Jean-Dominique was only able to blink his eye. Jean Dominique also didn't have the same open desire to die as Ramon did. Jean-Dominique understood that he was going to die soon but he had had no wish to speed up the process. I think that Ramon's story was very sad and depressing and talking only in the present where as Jean-Dominique's was more here's how it is now and here's how it was before. J.D.'s story was more powerful for me just for the fact that he wrote the story himself and had to blink out every letter of the memoir.
Friday, October 26, 2007
Present day: Marya is still struggling with her image and still constantly scrutinizing her body. She is married to Julian, her adolescent love. He too is not far out of the wrath of Marya's fire as he is the one she questions on whether or not she looks like she's gained weight. Marya will never be completely normal and she has a permanent heart murmur to prove this.
Thursday, October 18, 2007
Sunday, October 14, 2007
"Late August. You are pregnant. Again. You knew this would happen. You think, This is God's little joke. God will continue to play this joke for several more years, a cruel reminder that life happens, that the laws of nature will knock you on your arrogant ass no matter how hard you fight. You wait. When waiting is too much, you fall down the stairs when no one is home, an easy dive, belly down. Body still weak enough got such an old trick. Flush the red matter away. No tears. The uneasy guilt and cringe in you chest are not for the baby but for the breasts that are tender, a trace of blue veins, fat. They will shrink, you assure yourself over and over. Shrink."
In this quote Marya uses second person to describe something that is happening to the first person point of view. I think that she does this to show the seperation she feels from herself. The quote is describes vividly the pain she puts herself in even without starving herself.
"Sex is not expirenced so much as seen, and this translation of physical experience into intellectual excersize made sex tolerable. Hugs are different, however. Kissign is perhaps more intimate than sex itself. Similarly, hugs imply emotional, rather than sexual, intimacy. They are a gesture from one person to anotehr of nonsexual carign, and the idea of ebing cared for in a nonsexual way was not soemthing I could understand. Contact with another person reminds you that you are also a person, and implies that someone cares about you as such. This felt so profoundly false, and i felt I did not, in any way warrant such a care, such contact. Contact with another body reminds you that you have a body, a fact you are trying very hard to forget. "
Marya is deathly afraid of intimacy in any form. The things she can tolerate, like sex, are when she feels least connected to her body. Marya has described earlier that when seh is having sex she feels as if she watching from across the room, not expirencing it first hand. The importance of this quote is recognizing that she recognizes her own fear of the body and its emotions.
Monday, October 8, 2007
The Diving Bell and the Butterfly was, to me, touching but at the same time made me long to reach out to help Bauby even though there is nothing we can do now. His book will always amaze me in the fact that he took the time to blink out every word in his memior. This goes to show the determination that we all have inside us. I believe that Bauby wanted to write this book as his one last project of his life, to have this book to always be remembered with.
I thoroughly enjoyed this book though the ending left me unsatisfied. What I would have wanted is more of a conclusion to his work, and his life instead of leaving with just a subtle "See you later.." kind of ending. There are many things that i wish had been included like more of what his life was as a child or his relationship with his career. I would like to say that I pity Bauby, but really pity sounds more as if I am looking down on him when really I look up to his ever-hopeful spirit and his dauntlessness against fate.
Sunday, October 7, 2007
Sunday, September 30, 2007
- 47- Perfect.
Marya is describing a "Perfect Body" she capitalizes both Perfect and Body even though they are not at the beginning of the sentence. She seems a bit confused about what Perfect is but insists it is the only way that she will be happy.
- 57- Fear.
Marya is talking about fear in her childhood. She was afraid of growing up yet she was afraid of staying in her constant state. I think that Marya chose "fear" because she wasn't sure of anything else in her life but her fears.
This is the thing that Marya has wanted since she can remember. She believes it will only help her understand herself and what she wants in life.
Knowing the nature of this memoir, this word is inevitably loaded. Marya again capitalizes Thin several times when it is in the middle of a sentence. Marya's life revovles around the idea of Thin.
- 69- Self-Destruction.
Marya begins to self-destruct her life from the inside out. This is shown in her complusive behaviors of her eating disorder.
Usually a savior is something that helps us out of a life threating situtation but in Marya's case, she refers to anorexia as her savior. She says it is the only pure and constant thing in her life.
- 71- Gifted.
This word is loaded because Marya believes that "gifted" is everything that she is not.
- 71- Underachiever.
Marya's parents refer to her as an Underachiever, that she is not good enough, not strong enough for their expectations. Marya is heartbroken with mostly everything her parents say to her, though doesn't admit it.
Marya had potential. She had the potential to be normal and to be an achiever, though she never quite had all control on her own life.
- 86- Anoretic.
Marya refers to the word anoretic in a loving fashion. She respects the "saints" who have the will to starve themselves willingly as if God had told them to do so.
Marya is becoming more hard-headed and stubborn as time goes on. Her illness is at an all-time high and so is her reckless behavior. Therapy is doing seemingly nothing for her. I believe that if she does get into Interlochen that her behavior will just worsen. Marya is completely out of control and i have lost any sympothy or compassion I ever had for her as a little girl. I have a hard time reading this book since it makes me furious.
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
We first meet Marya Hornbacher in current times at a cafe with her friend Jane. Jane has just be dismissed from the hospital and begins to feel dizzy during lunch. Marya takes Jane to the hospital knowing what it is like to be a recovering anoretic and the body reacting to being fed after years of starvation.
Marya tells us that she became bulimic at age nine and anorexic at age fifteen. She floated in and out of hospitals throughout ten years. Many doctor's reports had claimed her to be a lost cause. Marya's disorder was not a result of a certain anything, she can't point her finger and blame a single incident as that would give too much credit to one pin point in the whole realm of potential causes.
Marya spent the early part of her childhood in California. Her mother was a actress and her father was a director. Marya always remembers her parents being odd about food. Her mother always picked at her food and her father was always saying he was on a diet, though ate more and more everyday. Even as a baby Marya had trouble with food. Her mother refused to breast feed her and Marya was allergic to cow's milk, soy milk and rice milk. She also had endless other allergies. Marya believes she was always self-concious of her body too. She did not like to touch or be touched by anyone. She had alwasy been mor athletic than graceful. Even as a young child Marya remembers trying very hard to get a reaction from her mother, some form of attention. Marya started obsessing about food, the number, size, order, and number of chews of her bites of food. She shows early signs of obsessive complusive disorder. Marya grew up in the theater because of her parents professions. She liked the feeling of "becoming someone else" when she acted. Marya's mother left the house often usually when she got into an argument with her husband. Marya becomes the thing that keeps her parents together, the 3rd leg of the triangle. Later Marya's father will admit to her that during those years Marya was the thing that kept him from leaving for good. In 1982 Marya and her family moved to Edina, Minnesota. Marya began school at Concord Elementary. In fourth grade she began to go through puberty. Marya was one of the first girls in her class to start puberty and was very self-concious about it. She thought she was very very fat. She began to stay home after school alone. After school she would immediately go to the fridge or cupboard and begin to eat. One day after her snack, she took a trip to the bathroom. She says that no one gave her the idea to throw up, she just did it. Shortly after, she became bulimic. From there it snowballed into a more and more severe problem.
This section was really difficult for me to read. The fact that a girl so young was having such horrible thoughts about herself made me want to cry. To tell you the truth, I almost set the book down after the first twenty pages. I predict that from here it will only get worse. Marya has told us in the begin that she is hospitalized 4 times through out the book so I'm sure this is only the begining of a very sad, long story.
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
2. David Copperfield
3. The Gift of Kindness
4. I believe in kindness, plain and simple.
5. "The chance to learn that gift was, more than anything, his legacy to me."
"My dad taught me that what you do counts. For me, that has to be about being kind, despite the odds."
6. "I work in the entertainment business, where kindness just never seems to be "in." It's not macho. It doesn't sell tickets. In the movies, the hero never kills the bad guy with kindness. But I believe Economics 101 is right. The value of a thing is determined by its scarcity. Which makes kindness spiritual gold."
As a new sophomore in the high school, I find myself referring to my map in between classes quite often. The hallways are usually packed wall to wall with students and there may not always someone willing to stop to give directions to a "squashmore". Knowing this, I've decided to make one of my goals this year to learn my way around the high school. I want to know every back alley and every secret corner. That way when there wall to wall congestion in a certain hallway i know a back route to get to class on time before the bell chimes. By the end of sophomore year, i hope to be the go-to girl for directions but until then I'm going to have to figure out a way to get to my classes the only ways i know how, through traffic.
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